Promises

Memories

2011-05-02T22:49:00.002+08:00

As I walk these streets
You come, haunting as you please
Jolting back, memories of tender heart beats
To the days where I thought this would never cease

Tried we did, but we failed
The truest test of friendship
What we became I’ll truly never know,
Separate lives we now live, as cruel time began to show

No more smiles or laughter
Stemming from the greatest source of joy
As I did then with my heart in my hand,
When I thought it meant forever

Yet now I walk along these streets
And the smiles come back again
I’ve nothing but, memories of you
So bittersweet, and I miss
Everything I had with you.

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I really do miss you guys, there's no such one person in particular. I don't just only miss you guys, i miss when back then things were much simpler and i still let you go. I don't know for sure where you are and part of me feels slightly responsible for the outcome. And you, you never knew, but you once had my heart. I'm taking a journey back and i see that now. I'll never forget that first meeting and i'll never forget what we did that day. It was simple it was pure. It wasn't complicated. I'm learning to let all that go now, as painful as it seems. But i'll never forget who you were the very first day that i met you. Thank you for the memories =)

With all the love i could ever give, Moo

Grow Old

2010-11-01T01:35:00.001+08:00

Separate it took so many years
Coming together seemed so impossible
Yet defied all odds they somehow did
Marital bliss was theirs to keep

Even after marriage it seemed
Happiness was something dreamed
Never was an easy day
Yet faithful to that promise they both made that day

Years later, lost in their lonesome bliss
Dreamers waking from their sleep
Realising what they’d just done
Wishing life had only just begun

Now the autumn leaves fall to the ground
Silently floating, making no sound
A man walks, by his lonesome self
Smiling as though he’s got a story to tell

Stopping and kneeling all of a sudden
He whispers something in this secret garden
“Its our special day remember?
The day we promised we’d grow old together” - Moo™

Rock Bottom

2010-04-27T23:01:00.002+08:00

Feeling like a shadow,
Each day turning into another
Staring out a window
Cold dreary rainy day

Figures pass,
Somehow nothing matters
The fire turns into embers
The spark no longer there

That life, that abundance of it
Where did it go?
Who stole it?
What happened really?

Please return it bring it back...

Cause of You

2009-12-28T04:41:00.000+08:00

When i can't sleep at night
Its all cause of you
When i can't throw a frisbee right
Its all cause of you
When i'm sitting alone thinking
Its all cause of you
When i come from the rain soaking
Its all cause of you
Yet...
When i wake up smiling
Its all cause of you
When my world keeps shining
Its all cause of you
When i'm laughing so damn hard
Its all cause of you
When i can feel my heart
Its all you
The reason is so simple so true
Like the timeless saying goes, Just cause I Love You =)

Random

2009-12-28T04:25:00.003+08:00

A starry night sky
Drifting over sleepless souls
Staring into the endless night
Flickering a hopeful light

Out there somewhere
Someone understands, everything
Wordlessly and without confusion
No more such hurt but promise

I stand here vulnerable
Simply for you to see
Necessary cause eternity with you i see
In your eyes its all i could ever be

So here i stand
With the stars in my hand
I'm reaching for you
I see a future with an I do

What say you?

Nova

2009-11-22T01:50:00.002+08:00

I can't give you the riches of the world, i can't give you everything you want, i ain't the most perfect person to be with, can't say i'll never do you wrong

But i'm willing to learn and never do so again, hold you steady when you need it the most, place you up above b4 i even think of me cause all i'll ever need is to see you happy

I'd let the world's beauty wilt away b4 i'd even turn to it cause placed beside you nothing can compare
When i walk past you i have to stop and stare, i don't have to die to reach heaven, with you i'm already there

So here i am simply without you, saying these promises to whoever might chance upon them but thats fair, cause we were never meant for chance i know, you're my life, my soul, my dream, my goal, you're me, all in all everything i'll ever be

Like 2 fires joined i'll burn brighter, for your angel's wings lift me higher, as i sleep and dream of your never-ending kisses, i'd stay awake and fulfill the dreams of the masses

By now i think its pretty clear to see, you're the reason of everything that drives me, i'll live my life like a superhero to everyone i see, but really, deep down you know its really you who needs to save me.

There I'll Be

2009-11-01T23:47:00.004+08:00

When words fail you,
When breathing hurts,
When lies become true,
When life becomes worse,

In the night you can't sleep
Not helping even when you count sheep,
Or in nightmares so deep
Like halloween with the tricks but no treat

Take my hand i'm here for you
Promised, this much is true
Even if your soul is cold
If no one else i'll be there to hold

I know that life is hard
We'll make it through
I don't know where caring starts
But i know somewhere here with you

So on the darkest and your coldest nights
No shoulder around and you need to cry
Use mine and i'll clear your sight
Lift your spirits way up high

So its simple and its plain to see
No matter what you need always there i'll be.

~Moo
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You Are

2009-09-21T02:55:00.003+08:00

What you mean to me,
More than everything
In this life the air I breathe
I'd give it all up cause its you I see

Wake me from this reverie
Lost and confused
Wandering this world lost without you
Looking for the one thing thats meant to be

Come into my life and set me free
I don't know what or how or why
I only know you're my future
No one else but you're meant for me

Here I am can't you see
Waiting on you to come hold me
Its cold here I long for you
I'll live up to my promise of coming through

There we are in eternity
No more pain and misery
Its you I hold so close to me
Forevermore we'll always be.

There You'll Be

2009-07-12T23:37:00.006+08:00

Walking through the darkness
Filled with your love in me
Believing as i know this
Being all i could ever be

Standing by my side
Never looking away
You are my guiding light
When my fears come to stay

Even when i doubted you
You never once did me
Cause your love, evermore true
Your grace has saved me

I know that in these times
When i need you the most
You read into my deepest mind
Thats when i yearn to feel you close

Now as i'm waiting for a meant to be
Wanting so badly to do something
Yet doing nothing and hoping
I close my eyes and i pray for assurance
and simply, there You'll be.

~Moo

I ____ You

2009-06-20T19:00:00.005+08:00

3 words, meaning so much
Showing so little, 3 words
Her gentle lingering touch
She left and it hurts.

3 words, if only you knew
Maybe we won't be like this
To you my heart flew
Sincerely its you i miss

3 words, I really wanna say
But the consequences that follow
Hopefully we'll meet someday
Till then my life stays hollow

3 words, miss, need and love ending with you
Dedicating these words only to her
Then i'll take that chance and say it here
And it may be too early but A.....
I Love You.

~Moo
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This is like an unconfirmed love that i'm sure of. How the hell does that work out i'm still trying to figure out but i know that its love. I looked in her eyes and i knew then and there i couldn't say goodbye, at least not in this lifetime.

For my Twin

2009-06-18T16:13:00.003+08:00

Just wanna say that i'm sorry
I'm a pretty much terrible Twin
There for you i haven't always been
Much less share with you funny stories

I do know, that things are crazy now
You're probably gonna go insane soon
But just like the guy who wanted to the moon
Maybe crazy is a good thing somehow?

The only way i can think of making you feel better
After looking through past messages on my tag box
Wouldn't wanna lose my Twin, i'll keep you on lock
Cause you're my Twin, always and whatever =)

~Moo
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Twin i hope this does make you feel better and keep the faith ok, things are gonna be over really really soon =) if there's anything i can help you with, anything at all, you know the hotline =)

Song in His Heart

2009-06-13T23:50:00.003+08:00

Fingers dancing, over the keys
Silent prayers on his knees
Every note heard, lightly hammered
Into his heart

Every memory of his story remembered
Tales of triumph; drifting apart
Melodious crescendo
Gently gripping his heart's handle

Telling stories of yesterday and tomorrow
As the song drops from the high to the low
With the arrival of the final notes
In his head a voice whispers
A story, his story, full of hope.

Cry

2009-05-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

Knelt, bedside, head bowed
Eyes closed breathing shallow
Desperation as tears flowed
Beige turning red in her cheeks hollow

Trickling, down her chin dripping
Onto her hands, the warmness
Of her tears do nothing
To quell the emptiness

Of something she once had
And yet her heart longs
To feel no more pain or sad
Feelings, to slowly wash away the wrongs

As she caresses the slender fingers
The memories slowly linger
In the air, all around
The silent night, the only sound

Her silent sobs, as she knelt bedside
Wishing she could be found.

Unmentionable

2009-05-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

I've no idea why i'm blogging here, maybe its cause i feel like it and can't seem to string my words to form another poem. It feels like i've been robbed of that. No matter. For now life seems to take on a mundane pace of wake up, go to school, tire myself out, give my all, gain nothing back, go home, sleep and repeat. I'm beginning to get really sick and tired of everything.... i've to piss people off, frens that i don't even wanna piss off... trust me i dun even wanna piss Eleen off... but the way they do shit, mess it up then throw it back to me is really really fcuked up.... i'm not responsible for their redundant shit... I've got a whole lot of explaining to do 2mw... i've been removed from the team i'm supposed to be playing with and part of me, no a huge part of me wants to play so desperately but i know i can't cause i can forget abt walking for a really long time if i sprain my ankle again which is highly likely. While trying to counsel half my world out there i realise that i need counselling myself and the messed up part is i have no idea how to even begin.... i've actually managed to forget abt myself totally and completely haha... being able to feel for myself... something else i've been robbed of and yet can't and don't really wanna take back for not wanting to be selfish... fcuking ego....

Lace Up

2009-03-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

Crossed in a corner of my room
Staring back at me with menace
Cold to the core filling me with gloom
A reminder of what it was to lose all i cherished

The grip of frustration when reality sunk in
Aided as fuel for my dreams that were burnt
But the metal pieces that i touch
We supposed to help they claim

Now i've cast them far from me
Nothing but a distant memory
Yet i still feel the fear
Of having again to call them near

As i mentally prep for my return
Of this obstacle i must overcome
Whats of me have i become
Maybe its the passion that still burns

Moonlight

2009-02-01T15:23:00.002+08:00

Walking up the water's edge
Draped in the finest of silk
Hair wrapped over her face
Sultry eyes that tell stories of beyond

As she brushed her hair back
The sun slowly set
Beneath the horizon
The moon came up and bathed her in its glow

Now i see, the pale glow on her dappled cheeks
Perfection pieced, to match the way her lips
parted as she breathed the cool night air
A greek goddess beyond human imagination

Pity no one knew and no one saw her
As she stood there in all her beauty
It was there and then, though i knew her before
Under the pale moonlight that illuminated the truth

Its her the one i long to hold.
~Moo

Snowy

2009-01-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

I just said my goodbye,
Guess it doesn't matter if i said it
Your body was already cold
Desperately we tried to warm it

Sprawled, i saw you lying on the ground
Shouting was the first thing i could think about
As I put my hand on your lifeless side
I hoped to feel your heart beat inside

I know that you waited for us to come back
To say goodbye to us as much as you wanted
I knew it hurt you and just like that
Your eyes lay half closed as you departed

As i kiss your forehead one last time
Tell you to behave like you're going away
I know that you'll always cross my mind
Somehow, i hope it forever stays that way.

~Moo

Love and of course will, miss you Snowy.
Rest in peace.

Good Morning/Night

2009-01-11T04:29:00.003+08:00

As the night draws near
I close my eyes and I pray
For the ones in my heart I hold dear
That the Lord's blessing on them would stay

That while they slowly drift
Into dream worlds beyond
Wishing upon them an angel's kiss
Their wishes coming true; a tale once upon

Through the night till dawn breaks
While the sun filters the darkness out
As they look and at first glance they take
Realise love is something they'll never go without

Cause for the rest of the day
Till night falls again, where it blankets the sky
So beautiful with stars to lead their way
Its when I close my eyes for them again
And I pray.

~Moo
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=)

Angel

2009-01-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

Proverbial something to live for, when all's bleak
The one to live for when life gets hard and the pain starts
And she gives me strength when i'm down on my knees, weak
Somewhat magical, she lifts me up, no matter how badly i'm beat

To compare you to angels would do you injustice
Cause what you did for me is worth more than just gorgeous beauty
To love you till life's end i'd promise you this
But your heart and your hand i'd need and for a lifetime you'd be happy

Your power over me is just so strong
On the lonely nights you're not there i close my eyes and i see you
But you never leave me for long
You come right back cause you know that without you i just couldn't do

At the end of the day i've still got God to thank
He gave me the honour of meeting someone like you
The lowest point of time in my life i sank
He sent me an angel, you to help me through

~Moo
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Enjoy =)

2008-12-14T17:23:00.004+08:00

Before you go don't say a word
There's nothing to say i already heard
They say you're going away, here i thought you'd stay
Please don't start to cry, it hurts me so
Girl know this, i can't let you go

So when you feel lonely i'm right here
With me by your side there's nothing to fear
Cause for you nowhere's too far
I'm coming with you wherever you are

I'm giving up my life here for you
Life is short and i wanna spend it with you
There's nothing more that you can say, in your heart i'm here to stay
We'll start a new life wherever it is
You can be a princess and i your prince

There's no need to feel lonely cause i'm right there
Kissing you goodnight, playing with your hair
We'll go places and you can be royalty
All i ever want is you right here with me

And when the plane flies, into the skies
We'll both look down and remember how hard we tried
You'll be in my arms and i'll hold you tight
Forever and ever tonight

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Sry i'm abit confused abt this poem as well... so there's no title or anything, i just thought hey lets write something and this came out... so erm... yea... maybe more Doc Suess will help?

2008-12-07T01:29:00.003+08:00

Answer

Reflected in her face, God's grace
He called out to her and she came
Floating down on clouds of silk
Her touch resurrected flowers wilt

A desperate plea he cannot stand
Longing so to hold her hand
Crying out once more on the shores
Out to the sea she's missing once more

Her shining knight in love's armor
Came to her once in her darkest hour
Up to the turrets of the loneliest tower
Showing her true love's power

Alas it was all a dream or so it seemed
Her knight no more than a figment of love's being
The lonely towers she spends her days
Her heart chained hard to the cold metal gates

As cruel fate may have she sadly seeks
The knight who appears gallantly in her dreams
Her one true love she someday would meet
Tapestry of their lives together they'd weave

If only she knew of the knight in disguise
Then maybe she wouldn't feel so cold
Cause he sees the little hope glimmer in her eyes
Making him wanna hold her till the days turn old

~Moo

Endless

2008-11-13T17:24:00.001+08:00

Hold my hand, come with me
Wonders beyond the world we'll see
Unwritten future's dreams unfold
Under the starry sky your hand i'll hold

Pass us by we don't care
End of time we'll still be there

We'll laugh at the rest of the world
Cause they'll never understand
Its you and me forever written in our soul
Its forever that together we stand

Laugh all they want cause they just can't see
Just how we were simply meant to be

I swear that you'll never be lonely
Be it dark nights or sunny days
Cross my heart know this my lady
Sealed with a kiss i ain't going away

When i'm with you nothing else matters
You lift me up, like climbing heaven's ladders

Throughout the years we'll always last
Forever is short, enternity does no justice
Cause we're timeless, present and past
Made for each other, it was said sealed with a kiss.

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This poem gives me some sense of satisfaction =) maybe cause its one that i've only managed to churn out after so damn long? Not that anyone reads this blog anyway, maybe i should leave this on the other one.... hmmm.... In any case, whoever that reads this, enjoy =) you are loved very much for reading this blog LOL

Unspoken

2008-11-02T23:06:00.000+08:00

Crackling beneath the waters edge
Fires burning inside with dread
Turmoil causing battles of wars
Tears shed of loved ones lost

Glazed over in the misty night
Stories they tell of princesses and knights
Those who were saved and she left alone
Patiently she waits sitting on her cold throne

The cold armor he wears does nothing to calm
Fire that burns so ardently in his heart
Her words lingering like a unforgettable psalm
His lies they disappear his future no longer apart

Clouded over the moon slowly fades
A memory of a hope she once held so dear
Pained handing everything over to fate
Never had she seen a future so clear

On that cold morning they finally met
Hope that dried up amidst the tears that were shed
Hand clasped her head resting on his shoulders
Eyes closed, words unspoken, no need, they're lost in the moment

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I wish i knew why i wrote this... there just this feeling that i can't quite put a finger on... it sounds a bit emo-ish but nt really more of like losing hope then finding it, knowing that you can find it there but the past holds you back or more like jerks you back. Maybe? You are the greatest mystery to me... yet you, hold the key

Meant To Be

2008-10-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

I wish i could get you to know how you turned my life around
You came into my life and swept me off my feet without a sound
So its no surprise that i want to be yours
To hold you into the night and just gaze into your eyes
Your beautiful eyes, hidden worlds they keep all unexplored
Leading into your deepest soul where i know i'd find my starry skies

Love, you hold the sacred key to my heart
I pine for you and i don't ever want us to be apart
Cause you and only you can set me free
The song of my heart i yearn to let you hear
Together forever, for a lifetime of love's eternity
In my loving arms all you'd ever feel is love my dear

You hurt me cause i still want you to know
No matter what, one day i'd let my feelings show
But for now i can only promise you
A true friend i'll always be and walk your life behind you
For you mean so much, as a friend i won't let you go
But there's something i wanna say and that simple is,

I'll always love you no matter what i promise you so.

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By request, hope u like it ai'te =) and i wish u all the best. God bless.

Mama

2008-10-04T12:33:00.001+08:00

Thank you for being the main influence in my life
Really couldn't have gone through all the painful strife
If it wasn't for you, i don't know what i would've become
Cause you knew fully well all i wanted was to have some fun

Thank you for the times you pulled me back
Even when i knew me decisions were whack
And for those times you let me through,
Thank you for being there to see me through

And now as i see you lying there,
I really can't act as though i don't care
Cause for a fact, i love you more than life itself
You're my grandma plus you put me before yourself

I guess that was your flair and your own style
When you shouldn't have your only solace was, "its worth the while."
Never wavering, unselfish and always loving
And to describe you this is just the beginning

We both don't know how things are gonna turn out
You gave everyone a scare when you almost blacked out
It was a rough night, thats all i can say
We just ain't too prepared to let you go away

The family wants to hold you tight and not let you go
Well most of us though for some i can't say so
But thats not the point cause i promise you
As long as i'm here, thats something i won't let them do

So please rest easy and please rest well
Don't worry about us, take care of yourself
We still got that family holiday to go on together
Yea its to Genting so you can enjoy its weather

Stay strong, like you've always been for life
Now its our turn to help you through your strife
You're a veteran in life its easy for you
But we'll be right here to see you through

That much i promise you and my word is good
Cause Mama i love you, WE love you and we always would.

Get well soon.

Protect

2008-09-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

You, were the very first to make him cry
When he saw you, i swear, i saw his heart fly
And you appeared before him like an angel in disguise
That same night, he thanked God for putting you in his life

Through it all since then he did his best for you
When you needed someone and felt alone you knew he'd come through
In the train when you were bored he became the fool just for you
When people stared he just thought, yes its for her muse

Then time went on and things changed and you just weren't the same
Though it did break his heart he kept his silence you no longer called him by name
It did hurt so bad that he thought of it till he almost went insane
Yet cause you needed him he disregarded, and still sheltered you from the rain

Then you spoke to him no more and he could only watch
On those lonely nights drowning his grief and sorrow in a constant flow of scotch
Though he sunk lower and you didn't care some part of you wished you did
Cause you know that being there for you no matter what is seriously no mean feat

So you reached out and in the tender way that only you could helped him overcome
And a long story short, and in the present after all's been said and done
He stands beside you at the altar smiling brighter than the sun
In his mind's eye his memories of you, playing on re-run

And as you say i do, its when he cries for you again
Cause the strong feelings he has for you, there's no use to pretend
For the one simple reason and for that reason only
His love for you, a Father's love, a love that was meant for you purely.

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Comments please =) and yea inspiration was from 2 seperate incidents on the same day. This Tuesday i went for pshysio and i saw this father playing with his daughter and i didn't see the mum around and yea he looked like a total fool but he didn't care at all, all that mattered to him was that his daughter was laughing and giggling away they way a child should and that was enough for him and the cutest part was he even taught her to play scissors, paper, stone (she's like 3 btw) that was really heartwarming to see.

The other was on my way home, i saw this guy that had tattoos covering his entire arm and he looked totally outta place, but on his left there sat this lil girl around the same age as the one previously mentioned and she was clinging on to his arm and literally dangling from it. I could tell he was damn tired cause he looked really haggard and his wife who was sleeping on the girl's left didn't bother she just slept. But throughout the entire train ride, from Orchard to Yishun, he kept her amused and one other thing i noticed was that his clothes were really in bad condition like slightly torn and all yet the clothes his wife and daughter wore were BRAND NEW. Thats a family man right there.

Empty Words

2008-09-22T18:41:00.001+08:00

I promise to love you till the end of time
Write all the poems with the words that rhyme
Love you cause i know you need someone
When you think of the future, i'm the one

But how much do words weigh
Were you really here to stay?
I'm glad things turned out this way
Cause i couldn't stand being miserable another day

And now the sun shines more for me than anyone else
If its one thing i've learnt, yea i should love myself
I wish you all the best with whatever it is you do
But i'm sorry when you need someone and he doesn't come through

Cause i know that i won't and probably never will
You left a hole in my heart and it bleeds still
But you never really did care and i don't want you to
Cause for what you did, i now know the truth

So i'll pack my bags and walk life's road
Glad that i finally got rid of this heavy load
I am who i am this is who i'll be
And yea, guess we were never meant to be.

So for all the words that i said and meant something
Somehow you made them turn into nothing
Ironic how you turned something so full of love
Into emptiness, nothingness, something that was nothing but

Love, an empty word.

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Its funny the kinds of poems you can think of when you're ice-ing your shin LOL this poem was based on.... experience, partially mine but its like taken from alot of people, and its for those who have loved and lost. Some found solace some didn't but whatever happened, its probably for the best. So yea those still looking for some solace, you'll find it someday someway unexpectedly. Till then, keep that chin up =)

Where You Are

2008-09-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

Illuminating the truth in the sun's rays
I lift my face, towards your embrace
You close your eyes as I hold you near
Heart hammering though you've nothing to fear

As the wind rushes all around
All you wanna do is smile and not make a sound
Cause you know the moment isn't gonna last
The time for us to part would soon come to pass

As surely as the sun rises and it sets
I wish i could stay that much you can bet
But hoping against hope there is no way
Though i long to be beside you would they let me stay?

But as you cry your lonely tears
Or live out your wildest fears
Please remember that in your heart
Not once would we ever be apart

If there was a way to defy all the odds
I'd go on my knees and i'll beg God
That no matter what it is or how far
He'd let me be beside you wherever you are.

Last Stand

2008-09-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

Shrouded in the ever growing mist
Dreary, victim of their final wish
Cold, the victim of winter's icy kiss
Into oblivion she slowly drifts

Away into the darkness beyond
Her heart beating to an alien song
Where she's headed she cannot fathom
Her demons she tries so hard to exorcise them

A desperate plea a cry for help
But there's no one around to hear her yelp
As expected, she knows this, she must go alone
Though now she can feel the cold, it strikes the core of her bones

As her tears slowly freeze on her grief stricken face
As her movement embodies the embrace of her fate
As she slowly freezes together in time
She can only think of one final line.

My last stand...

So Damn Hard

2008-09-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

Sunlight washes over her radiant face
She looks over waiting for love's embrace
None comes and the sun turns cold
She puts up a front, iron walls, yet longing for someone to hold

Wave after wave of emotion crash down
Swirling, spinning, twisting her around
What she has around her she doesn't know, unsure
Day and night she prays for an answer, her chosen path to be clear

As she dives into the pool of solitude she can't help but ask
What would it be like if she stepped back to the past
Happier? Maybe cause it meant all,
Innocent, forgiving not thinking she'd have to take that fall

But she did and it hurt, hard, fast, straight into the dirt
Yet with that echoing crash almost as though no one heard
Cause no one came running to pick her up, to hold her and say
I'm here now, you're alright and cause i love you everything's gonna be okay

In an ironic twist of fate she chooses another path
One of solitude for a lifetime guaranteed it'll last
While on the outside he can only look on
With his aching heart wondering what the hell's going on

Letting fate decide her life, becoming a somewhat slave
Yet somewhat some part wanting to be saved
But as the fates aren't so kind if you must know
Filled with uncertainty she's scared to let go

Of herself, to trust someone else, even with everything saying yes
Not wanting to put herself through another one of these tests
So all she thinks is safe for her to do
Embrace her fate and just follow through

Yet in the back of her mind,
As much to herself she'd want to lie
Its still there and it won't go away
Even if that one she once loved wasn't there to stay

All she can hope for is his well being,
That he found someone who loves, as much as she did him
The outsider, looking in, somehow understands what she's feeling
Longing to tell her this, in the best he can, that was a nightmare but i'm your dream

Cause he knows the pain thats filled with useless regret,
The loss of a first love, so damn hard to forget.

2008-08-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

Inspiration from Shaq's blog and some memories from the past.

Fallen Angel

As the feathers slowly fall away, peeling
Dropping ever so slightly till there's nothing more
His heart, all the pain still there but healing
Wondering if that was an angel himself saw

Put on this earth for a reason, yet not knowing
What he was really meant for, and more so for who
But unfailing and full of it was his love so giving
Never had to question if he was ever so true.

But as he walks this lonely barren road
No one in sight and for once he feels so alone
He questions himself and the purpose he once lived so vividly,
Where was his true someone when he needed someone else to lift that load

His heart somewhat worn out even with angel blessings
He suddenly felt hurt by whatever of life's happenings
Cause he once forgot what hurt was all about
And he felt it again but with darkness he decides to keep in shroud

A fallen angel he never wanted to be,
To be different from the rest, maybe his true destiny
Falling more than being lifted up on wings of his own
Love itself, ironically was something he has never known

Scarred, bruised and limping to his next journey
He wants to stop. For now. For eternity
But thats not the case for his sad story.
He was meant for "love", and its somewhat cruel irony.

letter.

2008-08-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

Dear you,

I know jolly well, you wont be able to read this letter.
Because, i never thought of giving this to you.
I tried so hard to make you understand,
yet day after day disappointments grew stronger and stronger.
I am so tired of all these but i still hang on to my belief because i was hoping that one day you will be able to understand you are not what you used to say.
However, my efforts were futile.
I forced myself to accept this defeat and to forget you,
but i just cant.
In fact,
i let myself to plunge into this bottomless pit.

I thought love would reciprocate, but i was wrong.
Darn wrong.
I put in my heart and soul into this,
But your final words were- 'let's end it'.
I have learnt to accept your flaws, your character and you,
day by day.
However, I never had the foresight to see such a tragedy coming.
It has finally ended.
It pains me and hurts me so much.

You wished that i was here with you all these while and i have.
Cant you appreciate and see that i am making an effort to do my best.
I thought that you are the only one who truly cares about me.
But, i was darn wrong again!
I failed to let you see that we have a future,
instead,
you have inflicted me with so much pain and misery.

I gave you everything that i have,
priortise you before anything else,
how much more do you want?

I wrote this letter a thousand times,
just to make sure that my inner thoughts are written here clearly-in black and white.
I know i am dumb to do this,
because i know that you will never recieved this letter.
Never ever.

I have no regret in knowing you,
in fact, i am really happy to know that you actually cared for me.
Furthermore,
I never regretted my decision and to stick to it for as long as i could.
My last words to you-
'I love you.'

Yours sincerely,
Me.
_____________________________________________________
hello there!(:
I wonder if anyone read kenneth's blog.
oh well, i am his fairy who writes on his blog whenever he doesnt have the mood to write a poem or a song.
And this is just the first poem that i decided to publish out.
Do feel free to give comments.
I would love to improve on it.
Take care, kenneth(:

Love,
lil fairy.

p.s.my poems aint as good as kenneth. So, pardon me.=D

2008-08-22T17:26:00.000+08:00

This isn't meant to insult or to strike anyone down, its just personal opinion and inspiration to write this came when i was bathing... so erm... yea haha

Supposedly Supposed

The one that you call on late at night
Just to talk to you until morning light
Run in the rain with you just cause
Hold your hand and say that he loves you more for your flaws

Patiently waiting for you when you're sleeping or out
To tell you he missed you when you've come about
Give you his jacket when the weather's too cold
Carry you up the stairs when you've both grown old

Unwavering, never faltering supposed to be there
And if you ever questioned him, show you how much he really cares
Put all your insecurities to rest
Prove to you that your choice of him was and still is the best

Be magnanimous when you wanna hang out with your friends
Cause he should understand that if he can't then they be there till the very end
Hold your hand when you're alone together
Even with sweaty palms or cold fingers never let go, ever

Embrace you with everything he's got
Simply cause he remembers what he did to come see you, to him like a war fought
Remind you of how important you are
Not to him only cause when it comes to yourself, you're not very far

Kiss you like it was the last time he was gonna see you
Cause sometimes thats the only way to see if he's true
Genuinely wanna see you even when you're absolutely terrible
Hold you tight in public, tell random strangers that you're his girl

First and last on his mind, everyday
And thank God for allowing you to come his way
Looks you in the eye when he says he loves you
Then makes a promise to forever love you and follow through

Never lie to you if you wanted to know the truth
For the simple reason that you he'd never wanna lose
Feel on top of the world, knowing that you're his and his yours
Loving you for the sole reason, just so because...

2008-08-20T13:27:00.000+08:00

More than that

Rolling of her damask cheeks
Collecting at her chin, falling at her feet
Like her to him and she can't feel a thing
Only pain and anguish, ever questioning

She withstood the test of time
Though more than once she crossed some lines
Still its no excuse the roles were never meant to be reversed
She wants to forget it all, put her sadness all in a hearse

But she knows she can't and it'll always be there
Haunting her, taunting her making her question if he'd really care
Total wipeout is that she needs, be free from all this
There's nothing she wouldn't give

Her heart, less than frozen goes weak
Once again she finds herself a victim at irony's feet
Cruel irony it truly is, she's lost herself
While everyone else finds themselves

Its true we are lost till we are found
But what if we haven't come around?
Doomed to be lost for an eternity?
A shuddering thought for anyone to see

We do believe the sun gon shine, soon
If that ain't what you want we gon bring you the moon
And we know that you strong
But keeping all this to yourself is just wrong

As your friends know that we gon be there for you
Rain or shine, night or day, without the sun we gonna shine through
Its a sad thing to see that its no longer a trend
But right here and forver, we'll always be there for you my friend. =)

2008-08-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

I wrote this sometime today, do poems really reflect one's innermost feelings?

Hurt

Everything i wished, across me
And i see her, my heart wavers, former resolve goes unstable
My heart i've been closing up with ice, trying to freeze
Never enough, she breaks the icy walls down with ease

Try as i might, hardest, i appear indifferent
In this case, an entirely new level of hurt transcended
For whatever it is, i'm still somehow there, and i don't know
Only truth here is that i ain't fine i used to be strong

But what can i do? Its your choice
It's not for me to say, i have no voice
Yet without a voice i yearn to say
Though i should walk away my feelings wanna stay

So i close my eyes and pray to God
For whatever it is he wants me to do
And as i say by your will Lord
Tears roll, they don't stop and outside the rain pours

A bitter laugh, a sad smile.
I still feel hurt after all...

2008-08-15T20:42:00.000+08:00

Stupid Poem

This is a stupid poem, its driven by feelings
And i know i shouldn't let them
But yet it lies bubbling beneath the surface
Never fading, despite my attempts to erase
Them.

And i wish, i could just fade away cause it did hurt
But never once did i like, lying in the dirt
Throw me down i stand up there's really nothing much
But the feelings again control me as so and such
Its them.

And i don't want to write this stupid poem i can't stand it
Might as well stand in front of a cannon and take a direct hit
But then what about the rest of my life? What's gonna happen?
I prayed, God told me the answer, i'm my own life's captain.
Its no longer them.

So now its a new tune and a new beat
But the same monotone rhythm in his heart moves his feet
To him now its unimportant and he must be selfish to himself
Believing that its for the greater good and it is.
He controls them.

And the rain falls silently in the background...

2008-08-10T01:16:00.001+08:00

Fireworks

In the dark, nothing can be seen
Cold dark and lonely, life, not knowing what it means
Then you came, and then i saw
Everything i never knew before
So all i have to girl to you
And i swear that its all true

You are the fireworks, that brightens up my dark dark sky
When i'm down and out your kisses, lift me oh so high
Like the different coloured bursts of energy way up there
You showed me life in a different light and taught me how to care
And you showed up in my life with that resounding boom
Filled up my life with your love and every empty room

So all i have to say now to you,
Is that i really do love you and i swear its true
There ain't gon be a time i will regret
Your love is a privilege, something i would never neglect
You're the spark to my life and what you ignite
Was meant for you and me

Baby you're the fireworks inside my heart
I'll stand beside you all my life we'd never be apart
The simple line that you kidnapped my heart it rings so true
So you know i ain't lying when i say i'll be there for you
And deep down you know you're worth every accolade
Even though you dispute every line that's ever said.

But through all thats been said please know this
You're the one who brought my troubled heart peace
To say i love you more than life itself means naught
What i feel for you is more than throughly thought
Cause i know what it means for me to fall for you
Despite the circumstances you know no matter what i'd always stay true.

I love you girl. You're the fireworks in my life, lighting it up when i need it the most, unintentionally, unknowingly but always welcomed to do so =) and like the dying embers of the after explosions, what you do leaves a lasting effect on me, and you i'll always think of and remember. 1st and last, girl. =)

2008-08-03T21:55:00.001+08:00

Your Answer

Times are hard and they gon get harder
You feel like you're standing in the rain and you can't get much colder
But give me the chance and i'll be your lifesaver
Don't think and give me your hand, i'm your answer

Close your eyes stop crying, i'ma make everything better
I'm here to shelter you through whatever weather
I'm here to hear you out whenever
In your heart you know we should be together

Be the guy lifting you up when you've hit rock bottom
Brighten your life when it all seemed so solemn
Hold you tight and make you swoon inside
Take my hand hold on tight for the ride

I love you means nothing anymore
Cause when i say it to you it means so much more
It don't matter what's the circumstance
Its me that you'll be with during the very last dance

Don't ever say you're not cut out to love
For the role of girlfriend, it fits you like a glove
And more precious to me than any angel, you're so much more than that
I know what you're thinking, so please don't dispute that fact

You know for sure that the answer is right there
Deep in your heart you know that i'll always care
I don't have to say all this to you
Cause you can read and feel me, i swear its true

But its not all me, its more of you
My life's been changed since i met you
You made me realize life's purpose
When i thought all around me was likened to an overrated circus

Took my hand and showed me the way
No matter how sweaty, i'm not letting go, no way
Like i said, i really don't care
I'm easy, just say you love me and i'll be right there

No its not cause i'm crazy in love
I'm damn sure you were sent from the skies above
My heart doesn't lie and it says you're the one
To see your face to the ends of the world i'd run

But if you told me to bring you the moon i wouldn't
cause its redundant and i just couldn't
But if you wanted me to i'd give you the sun
Since every other guy would want the moon for their girl, i'd let them have their fun

All these words i write here i swear its true
Cept for sun part, i think i'd be violating some of nature's rules
But if i could you know i wouldn't hesitate to do it
Then i'd use it to keep you warm when you need it's heat

But for all those above mentioned lines, they don't say much
Cause after all, words are only words and as so they are such
If you ever needed assurance in them, then just let me know
I'll look you in your ever so bright eyes and then whisper in your ear
The words i then say are simple short and maybe sweet,
but their intention is simple, to sweep you right off your feet

2008-07-25T19:53:00.000+08:00

Everything

From the one you call when its late at night
To chase away your sadness and make everything right
To the one who you scream at cause you're angry
Whatever your mood, your listening ear; i'll always be

Carry you home when you're dead tired
Refusing to date you at fast food restaurants when you're on a diet
Sing to you when you need some entertainment
Either that or do something funny for your sole amusement

Hold your hand when you need someone's touch
Keep reminding you if you ask me how much?
Hold you tight look you in the eye and say, "I Love You this much."
And if you ever doubted my reply kiss you and remind you there is love as such

Lend you my shoulder when you wanna cry
Put you on a plane, no questions asked, if you wanted to fly
Cause you mean everything to me and i wouldn't just try
Babe i'd do it in the blink of an eye

Stay awake with you when you can't sleep
Get pearls for you from the ocean deep
For you it would be a piece of cake
Your love for granted i would never take

I'll always be there for you no matter what
From the end to the very start
As much as its over rated, the promises and the i love you's
I'll say it cause i really do mean it, this much i swear its true.

2008-07-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

Cause its so random its the nature of it. Its dedicated. You know who you are. Thanks for the title, its for you. Especially for you. =)

Leave It; Break It

Sweat flowing, heart thumping
Eyeballs focused, brow furrowed
Feet pumping, lungs burning
Hair swaying, left to right, off the strands sweat drips

She can't stop she knows she can't
In her soul there seems to be a dent
And she tries to will herself to stop
But the fire, it burns, covers her all the way; bottom to top

But yet,
She's smiling,
Cool air whipping around her
It cools the sweat, and the tears

They Run, along with her
She down the road and "it" down her damask cheek
And she laughs, she can't stop laughing
As is her running

The fire, it rises, its too strong
She can't control, she might burn along with it
But there is no fear
She wills it over her

Washed with relief,
Pushing past all her grief
Her pain, her sorrows
Her soul she once considered hollow

Leave it or break it
Her Passion, she can't fake it
Burning stronger than ever
Her driving force, pushing her forward

Always forward, never back.

And she smiles to herself; this is life.

2008-07-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

By request.

What Now?

In the break of dawn she stands by the water's edge
As the waves crash and churn she feels her heart break
As the pieces slowly unhinge and fall off
She wonders was it because her heart was too soft?

Like a bittersweet re-run of a romance movie
Her thoughts focused on his words of truly madly deeply
And for the first time in her life with him
She doubts the love she has in him

Cause he wasn't there when she needed him
More than words was something that she wished she could've seen
As the streaks of sun wash over her face
In his heart, does she still hold that place?

She knows that out there someone's waiting for her
And for now she knows his feelings are sure
But the chance that he asks should she give it she ponders
Her heart and soul to him should she surrender?

Slowly the light envelopes her and caresses her skin
From her heart she hears a voice within
A small, slight whisper but more like a call
Telling her to be with her he'd give it his all

As a smile cracks her frowned face,
She turns around into his embrace
No longer did she need what was in the past
The future, she knew, was going to last...

Forever.

2008-07-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

Yes or No

On one knee he asks for her hand
Vowing that his love would stand
The sky turns a crimson red
Her rejection he truly dreads

Breath held heart beating faster than ever
As the lights dim around them and he waits for an answer
People around stop and stare
Those who were leaving didn't want to go anywhere

And she replies after what seemed to him eternity
Tears flowing down her cheeks, the day she thought she'd never see
His proposal, her hand in marriage
Her dreams of riding in a grand white carriage

But her answer she would not yield,
At least not yet unsure of his real self around her heart still, a shield
And as she slowly shakes her head
So fragile, his heart breaks

Silence, she knows, guilt she is familiar with
The room finds it harder to breathe
As he slowly rises up, he slowly nods his head
Then without saying a word, he walks away, head somehow still raised

When the darkness finally envelopes the poor girl
She sits by her bed and thinks she's lost her world
Just as she cries herself to sleep,
Its her phone, it gives her a little beep

-------------------------------------------------

Its the boy, the one who loved her so
Her heart breaks this time
She thinks she could've crossed the line
Her inner self only she would've showed

And as the message is displayed on the screen,
The boy tells her where he's been
Confused as she is about his message
He still wants her in his grand white carriage

And with the true determination of a lover
Promised he'd wait for that long awaited hour
To be the guy to walk her down the aisle
Just that he believes she's now in denial

So the ultimate question, Yes or No?

2008-07-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

I wish...

I wish for you everlasting happiness
No matter what you do in life
I wish for you love all around
So that you'd always know that you belonged
I wish for you a peace of mind
That life won't so easily get you down
And i wish for you all the above
Cause for the fact that you mean something to me

But most of all,
I wish for you to really know how i feel
That i could be the one that would take you to corners of the world
And if that weren't enough i wish you knew
That even heaven couldn't contain all the beauty that you possess
And to be yours, i'd give it all but sadly there's nothing that i can do
Cause while my heart is willing, all i can do is for her to make the call

I'm lost and don't know what to do,
confused by all thats around me
The pain it ebbs and flows and yet
it reminds me of how human i am
Then when i see her face i'm reminded again
Of how much i wanna be her man
So all i wish for right now
Something simple, to let her know.

(i'm beginning to like this blog better than the other luh...) hmm i'm blog biased

Promise (version 2)

2008-07-12T00:24:00.002+08:00

Promises don't always hold
I know sometimes with time people turn cold
In the present there's always no time
Love has been pushed to the back of their minds

Cause i ain't one of them
I will always be there to hold your hand
No matter what it is, i'll see you through
Leaving you is something i'd never do

In the coldest of the nights
I'll be there to hold you tight
Making sure you stay warm
Together we'd make it out the storm

And i promise that throughout these years
I'll be right by your side and fight your fears
Whatever problems you have i'll share
No matter what it is i'll always care

When your tears start to flow
And there's no one to hold
I'll be there to wipe every tear
And to remind you that i'll always be here

All this i promise from the bottom of my heart
Sounds crazy, but i loved you from the very start
I swear your heart i'll never break
Your love for granted, i'd never take.

Welcome welcome

2008-07-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

This is like my "alter-ego"? yea like where i put all the thoughts in there and well they're just my thoughts and i was wrestling with the idea of puttin this up in the 1st place and letting it known and all cause well... i dunno, but yea so erm this is my "poem blog" so just lemme know what y'all think. Out.

2008-06-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

Tired, battle-worn
Tears flowing, heart torn
Tried as he might he just couldn't bear,
Sick of it he just couldn't and didn't want to be there
So he closed his eyes and hoped for peace
Salvation to come and save him from this

Yet

2008-05-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

Dew rises up from the ground
Like magic they appear and leave with time
As the mist he stands in swirls around
Slowly his cracked heart forms a line

Blood, it flows, as the sense of despair grows
All he can do is stop and stare
Wondering if she'd care
Her value to him he'd love to show

Rejection after rejection
His heart burned with passion
Still decided to stay and wait
Giving everything up to tempt fate

Destiny, he'd rewrite in the stars
Like the poets of the distant times
Write stories of love's journey's far
Forever etched in his mind

Yet he hopes to let her see
Hold her tight in his embrace
Future says they were meant to be
However she can't seem to place his face

Like a wounded soldier of love's scorn
Hardened heart still marching on
To him only a minor test
To her he'd stand out from all the rest.